I just read this article in Frankie magazine (issue #20 nov/dec07) called Great Expectations written by Josh Phillips. Did you know that there's less depression in war than in peacetime because in war, everyone just wants to survive? That makes perfect sense, yet it's so nonsensical. Maybe our generation is having things too good, so that more things get overlooked and under-appreciated. Who am I to say? I guess I do it all the time. We whine all the time...like "this broadband connection is fucking slow!". Yeah...like that would come out of a kids mouth ten years ago? Actually, that wasn't the point of the article.

The point of the article - our generation lives in fear of mediocrity (not economic recession or authority). Is that true? I don't know. But I think it's true in my case. Call me confident, call me presumptuous or call me an idiot in a dreamworld, but I've always believed I'd be destined for great things (cheesy as it may sound). Not great as in winning a Nobel Prize for doing whatever "great thing" that was, but just that I'd be good at something I loved and that it would be something others could appreciate. Have I found it? Nope. My confidence is waning a little. What if in the end it's all about the money? I know earning heaps of money is not going to make me happy, but I sure as hell know not having enough is going to make me unhappy. Then there's another question. How much is enough? You get more money, you buy a bigger car, then there's less of that "more money". If you had less money you'd just buy a smaller car and be reasonably satisfied with it. Does that make sense? I'm just spewing rubbish today.